Learning Process

Somebody just told me that everything is a learning process.If I have to agree with him,I would say that my life is basically going "D" for the grade.It is hard so I just can expect that.But it is only an expectation.Who knows if I'm actually going for "E" or maybe "F".LOL.

My learning process is almost boring to me.Nobody knows about the upcoming future so we kinda have to create the whole thing,don't we?I fear of the future.I don't see which road I must to take yet.I'm afraid it will be the wrong turn so I just wait till someone took the road and told me what that was that like.

It is so good if we can decide the right thing for us and others just have to keep their mouth shut.But "if" doesn't exist at all.I just can't tell the sun not to rise.If I could then I would.Oh no I just mentioned "if".

I actually think it is important to be honest.So I'm gonna say that I love my learning process with my friends.I got nothing else to count on.They always back me up and the things I hate are completely repulsive to them and that is the most thing I love. :)

Random

By talking about everything that keeps interrupting me to have a beautiful life,I feel like I'm rotting in hell.I don't even feel like living.I'm almost down for everything so that also makes me think that life is useless.It's so sad..and weird.I couldn't resist the chance to complain about it,Hah!

My life is too messy.I have to make sure that I got to do something to clean them up.But I just can't.I'm only human and I''m not strong enough to turn them out to be perfect.Apparently,I'm getting a little sick of standing in immaturity to keep complaining about how the world is turning around.

It's so good to just live with people like me.Living with idiot is such a hassle to me.Well at least just be an idiot,don't get busy with others.Live your life and I live mine.The old people are pretty smart in general but when it comes to the way they judge our common sense,sometimes I wonder about it.

They are trying to set up our life from their state of mind and that is really funny.Honestly,it isn't anything to get worked up over.But I'm wondering,why do the other really care about it?Neither of my mother or father get into this thing seriously??They say about educating us to be a good individual.
What?My parents don't do that to me??No..It is actually because they know how the fuck do I look is not how I am.

Since then,I actually don't need a fucking adult supervision and whatsoever from you peeps
:)

Judgemental

After a while,I realized that everyone in this entire world is grown in immaturity and I hate those who like to force and push me down.Like they always right.Should I be anything more for being a good boy?I don't drink,I don't take drug,I don't go to the club and get stupid with bitches,I don't do random sex,and never had one before.What else??

Eventually I got kind of sick of them all that always being judged by appearance and that makes me feel like it is so fucking unfair.Why do they really care this kind of spam while there are too many things that they should concern about.

Why do they try so hard to be such a troublemaker?Life would be very simple if they support to each other rather than being mess.Life would also be so easy if they try to fit in the different mindset and understand the vary in life.

Don't be judgmental or it will be ended up splitting into two groups.Seriously.

Questioning

If you're wondering what I'm doing in my room in the whole first day of mid term break,I don't want to fill you in.Just figure what would you do in fasting month alone at home.

Earlier today,can't be considered as an early because I was up at 1p.m..I stayed up till 3 in the morning last night and up for "sahur" at 4.30 a.m.It so weird to get up for food on that time.But it is all ok because I like to eat but I just cannot gain anymore kilograms even though I eat like a pig.I'm skinny as fuck.I don't know why.I just am.People keep asking do I eat or not.What a silly question comes out from their stupid mind.Everybody is born with different metabolism.There's gonna be something about it.I don't know,If you really care about it,go consult a doctor.

Some fat people are trying so hard to lose some weight.And I'm in the other way around.

Is this a kind of ungrateful?

Another question will make me go crazy.Too much questions in this life.Why this and why that people will never stop questioning.

Dumbest idea

As everyone else,I used to be in school,wore stupid uniform and woke up early morning, worked on something ridiculous named "homework",wore same old fashion shoes and everybody looked like clone to the others.It was over in almost three years.So yay!

And also I didn't want to get on those kind of things anymore.I wanted to get a job and earn money and buy myself things.Never thought to be in college or whatnot.But the only reason I agreed to let myself being in so called "UNISEL" because I figured later on,when I'm with my own, I need to get a proper job to live a life.I'll have better condition than have to work in groceries store or fast food restaurant all day long.So my study in Mass Communication field will take me into a higher level to get a well job.

Also I wanted to experience what college life feels like.All that I knew was I don't need to wear uniform and do whitening my shoes.I can freely dress and become fashionable.Wow!!

Like I said,I'll be happy having a college life,but for now I'm stuck in Unisel with a bunch of morons.

To be honest,I think to be in Unisel is the dumbest idea ever been.You've got crazy rules like you cannot wear jeans,grow long hair even it is a private institution.If it was up to me,our title as student would be only based on our performance in our study not appearance.But then I guess that would be someone who always protests that way because he is fugly and stupid.

Now I'm trapped and cursed in the college season.So sad :(